Every Day, They Tell Me to Die

I am documenting this because it keeps happening.

Not once. Not one bad reply. Not one random stranger on a bad night. Every day.

I post about what happened to me in the D.C. Jail. I post about being suicidal in solitary confinement. I post about a lieutenant allegedly looking at me and saying, "Hope you don't die."

Then people show up under that post and prove the point.

I am not claiming every reply below is a prosecutable criminal threat. I am not pretending a screenshot is a full investigation by itself. I am saying this is the public language being aimed at me, in the open, while platforms still find reasons to lock or limit my account for far less.

The receipt

On May 30, 2026, I preserved three public-reply screenshots from X.

They were all connected to the same broader pattern: my name, January 6, treason language, death-penalty framing, and replies that treat my past suicidal state like something people are allowed to mock or wish had ended differently.

Screenshot 1: "the world would be better if you had"

The first screenshot shows my post about the D.C. Jail:

"A D.C. Jail lieutenant looked at me while I was suicidal in solitary confinement and said: 'Hope you don't die.'"

Under that post, an account using the handle @tramppolitics replied in substance that it was a shame I would "lie" about hoping that, because "we all know" the world would be better if I had.

Read that carefully.

That was not a disagreement over policy. That was a reply under a suicide-and-solitary confinement post saying the better world is the one where I did not make it.

Screenshot 2: "traitors have no rights"

The second screenshot shows a verified account under the name Kathleen Keirsbilck, handle @KKeirsbilc9584, replying under that same jail-suicide thread.

The reply says most countries hang traitors, that in America courts are backed up, and that I will get my day in court and "remember traitors have no rights."

That sentence matters.

The pattern is always the same:

1. Call a January 6 defendant a traitor.
2. Treat the word "traitor" as permission to talk about hanging, death, prison, or loss of rights.
3. Pretend it is political commentary instead of dehumanization.

I was pardoned by President Donald J. Trump on January 20, 2025. The federal charges against me were dismissed with prejudice. That does not stop them from using the same label over and over so they can justify the same punishment fantasy over and over.

Screenshot 3: "I wouldn't call that a death threat"

The third screenshot is from a verified account using the name Chief Caucasoid, handle @COVIDcarditis.

That account replied to my post about a verified Facebook account that wrote I "should've been put to death for treason."

The reply tried to draw the line this way: it was not a death threat; it was a wish that I had been charged and convicted of treason, which may carry the death penalty.

That is exactly why I am documenting this.

They want to launder the same message through technical language. They want to say, "I am not threatening you. I am just wishing the legal system had taken you down a road that ends in death."

I am not required to pretend that distinction makes the pattern harmless.

Screenshot 4: X locked my account for my reply

Then I tested the standard.

After the replies above, X showed me an enforcement screen saying my account, @RealRyanNichols, had been reported and automatically locked for violating its rules against violent speech.

The post X identified was my reply to the same thread:

"@0xagonally @KKeirsbilc9584 Your side? What does that have to do with ME being abused while in custody? I didn't do that to anyone, but comments like yours are why I WILL do that and not show any mercy 'next time'."

I understand why those words can be read aggressively. I should have made the sentence cleaner.

That is not the issue.

The issue is the contrast.

The screenshots show X locking or limiting my account over that reply while the surrounding context includes people saying the world would be better if I had died, saying traitors have no rights, and trying to sanitize death-penalty rhetoric as something other than a threat.

X's own enforcement screen said my account was temporarily limited, that I could browse in read-only mode, and that I had to delete one post before the countdown continued.

That is a receipt too.

This is not one incident

This is the same pattern I have already documented on this site.

• First, X locked me after a verified parody account framed a Taken-style reply as me "trying to find me" and then wrote, in public, that he was "casually getting" my account banned: Banned from X for a parody.
• Then X locked me again for the "Space Force" and "discombobulater" reply while "you deserve life in prison" stayed up: Banned again for Space Force and discombobulater.
• Now X locked or limited me again after replies about suicide, hanging, traitors, and death-penalty rhetoric showed up under my name: The Receipts Wall.

That is why I am documenting the sequence, not just the individual comments.

What it shows

These screenshots show a public pattern.

They show people entering threads about jail abuse, solitary confinement, suicide, January 6, and my own name, then adding death language, treason language, or "no rights" language.

They also show the platform response when I answer back in one broadly worded sentence.

They also show why owning my own site matters.

On social media, a platform can bury the post, lock the account, hide the replies, collapse the thread, or make the source URL hard to recover later. On this site, I can preserve the pattern and point people to the record.

What it does not prove yet

This article does not prove every account is connected.

It does not prove every reply is a criminal threat.

It does not prove who is behind every handle.

It does not prove that X intentionally amplified the replies.

It does not prove every enforcement action is political.

Those are separate questions.

What it proves is narrower: I have screenshot-backed receipts of public replies using suicide, treason, death-penalty, and "traitors have no rights" language under my name, followed by screenshot-backed receipts showing X locking or limiting my account after my response.

That is enough to document.

Why it matters

This matters because the same people who call me dangerous are comfortable saying the world would be better if I had died.

The same people who say January 6 defendants are extremists are comfortable stripping us of rights in public replies.

The same people who claim the moral high ground will argue over whether wishing for a treason path that carries death is technically a "death threat."

That is the record.

And the record is what I am building here.

What I need next

If you see posts like this under my name, send the receipt.

I need:

• the screenshot,
• the direct URL if you can get it,
• the date and time,
• the handle,
• the thread it appeared under,
• and whether the account is verified.

Do not threaten anyone back. Do not harass anyone. Do not mass-report people in my name.

Send the proof. Share the link. Support the work if you want this archive to keep growing.

This is why I own the domain.

This is why I am building the record here.

This is why they cannot be allowed to rewrite it later.

— Ryan